Home alone and laughing hysterically at my computer. My neighbour called and asked if I was okay.. apparently he can hear me. omg.
Why are you compelled to start talking about how you’d “do her”, you’d “do me”, or something along the lines of sex? Like seriously, that shit is annoying. Do you honestly think saying shit like THAT makes you attractive? No. Like, why can’t I just have a friendly conversation with the opposite sex without trying to get it in or something. Grow the fuck up.
I find it hard for me to just let someone who I’m friends with just walk out of my life. I keep talking to them, I keep contact with them when I know our friendship is slipping. It’s hard for me to accept someone walking out of my life. I try to prevent it from happening, but sometimes, I guess, in the end I feel like it was useless. Sometimes, you can’t do anything about it
Is that what you want to hear from me? I’ll say it and mean it a million times. I don’t know what I’ll be apologizing for, but just talk to me. Tell me why you’re upset at me, or why you’re mad at me. I still don’t know. But I know it has to do with me. Yell at me. Tell me that you’re mad at me, that’s you’re upset with me. Just don’t flat out leave.
My parents dont let me go out often. Im not “allowed” to go out and party. I can’t just take out the car and drive around town. I can’t just go on roadtrips with friends. I’m literally just locked up at home. And then they complain that I DONT do anything. Really? I need to move out.
I’ve missed out on so many things in life because I’m sheltered. I thought my teenage years were supposed to be memorable? Shit. I wish I could just forget all of it. I hate not having my parents trust me when I haven’t done anything wrong. I hate always being doubted by them. I hate it. I just wish I can be on my own and prove them wrong. Being sheltered only made me rebel so much more - especially the fact that I’m a GOOD kid.
And I’m STILL being sheltered. I dont go out til 3am, shit, not even til like midnight. I dont have sleepovers. I dont go and party. I dont drink. I’m always home safe. I let my parents know where I am. And yet they still yell at me for little things? For fucks sake. I just got yelled at for coming home at 10pm ffrom watching a movie.. what the actual fuck
And you’d think my dad would be okay with my boyfriend. 2 years and you’d think he’d be accepting of him. But he’s not. He’s still overprotective and bitchy whenever I ask to go out with him. I’m not even with him on a daily basis. He doesn’t come over every day. We don’t go out to dates every weekend. Even asking the simple “can I go to the movies” he gets all protective and moody. What the actual fuck man. I dont ask him to take my Boyfriend on vacation with us. I dont ask him if he can sleep over. I dont even ask him if I can go over HIS house. Something as simple as just going to the movies he gets all pissy about it.